Feeding…. breast feeding versus formula. What is best?

If I knew then what I know now, that is how I feel about feeding. This is a loaded topic. baby-bottlesThere are winners and losers on both sides of the equation. I wanted to breastfeed my daughter and tried really hard. Financially seemed very appealing to us, formula is very expensive.  I did breastfeed her for a while and enjoyed it, what a great way to connect with her. I admit it, it isn’t an easy task. It was very time consuming. It was very tiring. The pumping thing just did not work for me…while at the hospital and even before delivery I heard a lot about the benefits and how convenient it is to breastfeed,  but not about its challenges.

My baby was not a big baby, she was 5 pounds and 7 ounces at birth. When we left the hospital , she was 4 pounds 19 ounces. Three days later, at the pediatrician’s office, she was 4 pounds and 14 ounces! I was alarmed. We were at the pediatrician’s office every week to monitor her weigh for a while. The weight gain was just not happening and I was breastfeeding her every 2 and a half hours… I was not eating. I was not producing the kind of nutrition she needed. I was not paying any attention to what I was or was not doing to myself, I was totally consumed by this tiny little baby that needed to eat and gain weight.  At the hospital, we made the decision to give her formula to complement for feedings. You can’t turn breast milk on, lol, it is an not an event, it is a process and as such, it takes some time.  We started to feed her more formula and less breast milk, slowly but surely, she was making progress.

I have always been very very patient with her feedings. My baby drinks Similac Ready To Feed Formula and at the hospital we were given the individual bottles, so cute, and also so expensive.  Those bottles once opened are good for an hour, so feedings have been an hour event.  I don’t give up when she stops…after a little break, sometimes she just needs to be burped, she will take the bottle again and finish it.  We have graduated to Similac Ready To Feed 1 qt. bottles, a way more economical.

On December 30, 2013 I started her on cereal, made an executive decision to add one teaspoon of cereal per ounce of formula, and that is not what is recommended. My decision has been a good one, her pediatrician tells me: “… keep doing your way, it is working…”  Solid foods will be discussed during our next  visit. What does it mean to me? I will have a lot more to clean up, more laundry to do. Every milestone is bittersweet.  She is growing up so fast! She giggles, her hair is changing, she reaches out to me and holds my hand close to her as fights her sleep…these are priceless things that I am experiencing…a couple of days ago, she was sleeping, I was checking on her,  kissed her arm and she was laughing!! There are moments meant to be committed to memory. Mommy business is overwhelming. I have to find ways to take care of myself, she deserves the best of me.  I have to take care of myself, physically, mentally and emotionally. I need to reclaim the girly girl: the one who likes to dress nicely, loves skin care and little make up, loves a good hair cut… these things are on my most wanted list, lol! I will be teaching these things to her someday. Right now, I can teach her that every time a girl goes to the girl’s room, she needs to redo her hair, touch up a little. … every time I change her diaper, I tell her: “…ok, now we need to brush your hair 🙂 …”

 

 

 

 

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When life gives you lemons… make lemonade

IMG_0109Yes, I was not prepared for a lot of things.  Mostly, I was not prepared for the joy, the overwhelming joy…that came with changing her diaper, seeing an empty bootle after feeding,  her smiles while she is asleep, her dancing moves (subject of a future post) 🙂  What I can say with absolutely certainty is that  my lemonade is very sweet…honey sweet 🙂

What I want to say…

 

IMG_4395I already know that this journey comes with a lot of moments that I would not classify as “kodak moments”.  The journey prior to my daughter’s  arrival was not an easy one… but that is behind us now. There are difficult and challenging days. Days when all I need is a bathroom break, or to get something to eat.

My needs and wants are defined differently nowI am OK with it. I have looked for happiness and validation in corporate jobs, places to live and other things.  I am attending a class at coursera.org and my amazing professor talks about meaning. Employees want to do something meaningful, make a valid contribution towards something.

I am finding more meaning caring for my daughter  in my pajamas and a hair style that can’t possibly be duplicated than I ever did while wearing a suit and high heels. I do want some of my wants to be promoted to my needs category 🙂 such as my skin care regimen… subject of  another post.

Baby Products

There are so many products out there! It is very easy to get overwhelmed. I think trying things out and seeking feedback from reliable sources and reviews is a great way to get educated about it. There are great companies that send trial packages out, so we can try their products for free 🙂 To me the unspoken message that these companies are sending is: 1. we do trust our products 2. we do care about you.  Another thing that requires attention: a reasonable return policy… and of course, good customer service.

Some things will take some trial by error and it will happen a lot; not all baby wipes are created equal; I am going to leave at that for now. Bottles are a huge deal, not an easy purchase… we all know that buying things for others is often an challenge and somehow we forget that the same applies when it comes to our babies! Lol. I keep telling myself that the choices that I make for her today will impact her long term, and I want her to be happy, healthy and be in an environment that will allow her to be just that

It is fun… the learning is fun… if I knew then what I know now, would have made some better choices. I tell my baby all the time: “… I did not know, but it will be better…” I swear she understands me because I can see forgiveness in her ways and a smile that brings me comfort.

Are you kidding me…

 

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I was not kidding. I am here!!!!

My goal for 2013 to address my mid-life crisis was to go to Law School. I even had created an email account to reflect that 2013 was all about Law. A long time goal that has been in the works for years, and the time never seem right to go for it. Well, that is not how 2013 happened for me. I had a baby…and I was 45 years old. Now I am a mommy. A mommy  blogging. I have so much to talk about it: bottles, diapers, clothes, feeding, toys, books, languages, music, products (huge category when it comes to babies!), naps, bath time. The list goes on… solid foods will start really soon!! Imagine what those days will bring in! More laundry 🙂

My goals have changed, my priorities have changed. Law School is on “hold” status; there are other business opportunities in the making. I am speaking more Portuguese than ever!! I am a native Brazilian, and want my daughter to learn languages other than her primary language. I am a mommy blogging, happily blogging about baby and me 🙂

 

 

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